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I cried at the end. I will admit it. I totally cried. I teared up a little at the "I love you"'s in 510, but not nearly as much as the end of this episode. oh. my. god. I was spoiled for it, but it didn't ruin it in the slightest (thank god). My heart hurts. I am dead. I am completely and totally dead.

Well, the less heart-wrenching parts first.

Melanie/Lindsay: Finally, finally, finally. Now, they better keep it this way, or I will go insane. Oh, but I so knew Dusty had died even before Lindsay suggested calling her. I forget what they were talking about, but it might've been how lucky they are. Or something. I don't know. But it was too... positive. OH! It was right after they found out Michael would be ok. So yeah, it was too positive, and I'm like "This is luring me into a false sense of calm, isn't it? OMG DUSTY DIED. SHE DID. I SWEAR TO GOD DUSTY IS DEAD." And then right as I'm thinking this, Lindsay's all "LET'S CALL DUSTY!" so I'm like "...yeah. She's so done for." And I was right. Aw. Poor Melanie and Lindsay and ...Maddie? and Dusty. Thea and Michelle were really fabulous in that scene, though. Especially Thea, when Melanie tells Lindsay that Dusty's died? It's like someone's punched her right in the chest. Perfect. Oh, but on a less depressing note: Jenny Rebecca and Gus are too fucking adorable. Seriously. Cute kids.

Emmett: Poor, poor Emmett. I knew as soon as he raced out of the hospital that he was totally fucked up due to the explosion. Glad that Drew tried to be there for him. And I loved Drew's line that "This has nothing to do with being gay or straight; this has to do with being a human being." I think that may have secured my Drew love for the rest of the series (though that's not saying much - [sob!]). Oh, but also Emmett's "I am exercising! [pours syrup]" I like that Carl helped Emmett through the shock. I knew that the guy he was talking about was going to end up being him, because it always is in literature/TV/movies, but it still worked, I thought. Glad Emmett was able to get through it. Him bragging to Drew while they were running about punching a guy was too fucking cute. :D I love Emmett.

Ted: While watching the episode after like... 1 minute of screentime of Ted, I wrote: "Ted's avoiding, yes?" Yes. But poor Ted. =/ After so many movies/TV/literature/etc. of one person blaming themself for another person's death/injury (usually death, though) because of some ridiculous reason, it was kind of annoying having Ted blame himself. But I suppose it is realistic, and it wasn't too bad. I still felt horrible for Ted, so it was ok. Him finally visiting Michael at the end was very, very sweet. Also, I liked the guy who fucked him during the vigil. I kind of hope he shows up again.

Michael/Ben: ...HUNTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [dies] As I've said before, I have been spoiled for most of the major stuff, but I totally wasn't spoiled for this! My first thought that it was going to be Brian at the door, but then, no, HUNTER! :DDDD I had been thinking about him actually when watching 510, wondering when the hell he'd come back, if ever. But in this episode, I was concentrating on Brian/Justin so much, that I totally forgot about him, and... THERE HE WAS. EEEE! :DDDD [love] And him asking if he can stay? guh. What I wrote during this part: " 'Come home?' !!! <3 Knew what was coming, but heart is fucking bursting. I want to cry. WE DO!!! <333" Hee. The "we do" is obviously for when Michael and Ben say that of course they want Hunter back. And how much do I love that Hunter asks about coming home rather than staying with them or living with them again? sigh. YAY FOR HUNTER BEING BACK!!! Anyways. Now, for the non-Hunter stuff. I totally teared up when Ben was talking to his class about Michael. I didn't get teary at all during the vigil or when we first see Michael all hurt or anything else relating to Michael until he started talking about him. (I think that may be because I love Ben far more than I love Michael.) Poor, poor Ben. And I realized how hypocritical it was for him to say that and then punch the guy at the vigil, but I'm fucking glad he did. I loved that. I loved his scene with Brian. ...I love all scenes with Brian, though, so that's pretty much a given.

Brian/Justin: Ok, first of all? Knew the beginning was a fakeout from the start. It was effective, though, so it's ok. When Brian said "What about Michael?" - guh. He sounded so broken! He sounded so broken throughout the entire episode, really. So fragile. Heh, but at the beginning with them at the hospital, I kept screaming at Brian (...in my head) to go over and sit with Justin and hold his hand and maybe make out a little. Ok, so the making out might've been in bad taste. But he did not. =( Of course, that was to set up later the tension between them. Wouldn't have worked as well if they were all cuddly and making out at the start. Still. I wrote down "He sounds so weak!" "He's so broken!" so many times. In the scene with Ted at Kinnetic, I loved how he only was thinking about Michael and Justin, because he lurves him. No business. Didn't care about Babylon or how much money it would cost him. Just wanted to be sure Michael would be ok. And, I know I've said this like 500 times in one paragraph, but when Ted tells Brian he should get some sleep and Brian says something like "I already tried."? guh. Poor weak, fragile, broken Brian. Also, after that, at Babylon? In response to Ted saying how he would've died before letting Babylon being torn down and having a mini-mall be put up, "Enough people have already died."? guh. I love Brian. So many amazing Brian lines. Every word out of his mouth was golden.

I loved the Jennifer/Brian scene. I love their quasi-friendship. Brian telling Jennifer that Justin turned him down? Awwww. And I love Jennifer's shock, and how she kind of stares at him. I can't explain it, but it totally rocked. "For what it's worth, I'm sorry I'm not going to be your mother-in-law," - awwwww. I love Justin's mom.

As I already said, I loved the Ben/Brian scene. "Try it more often - I might like you better" and "Zen Ben" were awesome. Again, Brian's lines were fabulous.

On to the mega-making-me-cry-and-squee-and-die scenes. Numero uno. What I wrote: " 'How about marrying me?' [dies] Word perfect! hee! NOT WITHOUT YOU. KILLING ME. HOW CAN YOU DENY HIM?!?!?!" heh. But really. What Justin says is totally like... completely Brian. Of course, he's probably heard it enough that he's had it memorized. Loved Brian's expression at that, and the "Word perfect." And his "Not without you."!!! eeee! I loved. sigh.

Oh, one last thing before the final scene: during the Melanie/Lindsay talk in the diner with Justin, I wrote "Mel/Linz=anvilicious about Justin's relationship with Brian, but I don't care as long as he fucking says yes." So, yeah. It wasn't too horrible, though, and it does help contribute to him finally saying yes at the end.

Ok, finally. One of the best scenes of the series. Hee, I wrote "TOO MANY GOOD LINES." But it's so true. "But because I'm the worst candidate for marriage, I'm also the best candidate for marriage," - hee! I love Brian's logic. And I loved his grin after he said that. Too cute. HOW COULD YOU EVER DENY HIM, JUSTIN?! And the reason, the reason! "To prove to the person I love how much I love him." And, and how he's saying "I'd give anything, do anything, to make him happy." Awwwwww. How can you not positively melt? hee and Justin's "You're fucking unbelievable," and Brian's "It's true. [pause] I am." Heh. That line actually made the scene for me, solely because... it's so Brian. When I first read the spoilers, while I was ecstatic about the "I love you"'s and the engagement, I was afraid that it wouldn't be believable, that it'd be way too out of character for Brian. My first thought when I read them was "This has to be fake. Brian would never say 'I love you', and even if they could somehow make that believable, there is no chance in hell that he would EVER consider marriage, no matter what." But that line made the scene work for me, because it's so snarky and so in character and so Brian that... it's all believable. Even though he's clearly changed, he's told Justin he loves him yet again, he's fucking proposed to him, he finds a reason to get married... he's still that snarky bastard underneath. Not that I'm saying he didn't mean it, it just shows that he hasn't done a complete 180. He's still Brian, just... more mature.

Anyways, enough about that line. Justin: "You bought me a castle!" Brian: "For my prince." squee! So cute! And and and Justin not believing how Brian could sell the loft and Babylon, saying "I took a chance on love" - omg. [dies] I think that was the point that I wrote in huge letters "KISS HIM YOU FUCKING IDIOT." And Justin realizing what that means, and him stepping forward and saying "Ok, let's do it," and his grin, and Brian forcing him to say "Yes, I will marry you," and the kiss and I'm totally just recapping this scene, but oh my god I love, I love, I love. Oh, and the song that starts the instant they kiss - so well done, and such a beautiful song. I checked it out, and it's by the Dandy Warhols, whom I already like and... yeah. Totally awesome. Lover I Don't Have to Love in 510, Dandy Warhols in 511. Too awesome. And then and then when Brian pulls away and looks down and Justin is instantly paranoid and asks "No, you're having second thoughts," I was so worried that even if Brian said "Of course not," or "Not at all," it would sound fake and then I'd be worried ...even though I already know how this will end and that Justin would get more paranoid and it would all explode, but then Brian said "Not one," and the way Gale Harold devliered it... all doubts in my mind (and Justin's, I'm sure) were wiped away. Because it sounded almost... amused. Like he expected that he would have some doubts, but then... none. No doubts. And then, finally, the sex. Awwwww. [sighs] They are so in love.

...yeah. I think, somehow, I liked this episode more than 510. I don't know how that's even possible, but I do. guh. I want to watch 510 and 511 over and over and over again. I've watched both of the scenes about 10 times each now. I so have the urge to do a complete marathon now, too. I think I'll do it after it finally ends. I won't download 512 until it airs (meaning no new QAF next week. Whatever, it was so worth it to watch this. I can just watch both 510 and 511 next week! :D) so it'll be in I guess 2 weeks. But I don't know how this will work. There are a fair amount of QAF eps, and around that time is when the X Games start and I'll be obsessing over that enough as it is, and I was planning on doing a Buffy marathon this summer (...I don't think that's going to happen. sigh. I'll have to settle for... I don't know. Next summer? Winter break? Spring break? I do not know.) and... yeah. But I'll try. God, I have so much crap I should be doing instead of what I have been doing. Oh well.

I don't want to watch 513. 512 I think shall be ok, but 513 is going to kill me for about 1000 reasons, and not for all the awesome reasons that 510 and 511 killed me. sigh. I shall hopefully manage, though. With the aid of bundles of post-series finale fanfic.

Lulu needs to get on LJ so I can squee to her in many comments about 510 and 511. sigh.

I promised myself that I'd do the critical reading hw and the essay before watching 511. ...about 1/10 through the critical reading hw, I decided that finishing that would be enough and I'd do the essay tomorrow. I'm such a horrible procrastinator. Or, rather, I'm a great procrastinator is the problem. Oh well. I'll have plenty of time to do the essay, I just know that I'll have wished that I had done it today. Last week I did it on the Sunday before the Tuesday class, which was quite wise. I clearly did not learn from that. blah. ...but for now, I shall make a multitude of icons from 510 and 511 from caps that I made, because that's far more important than writing an essay that's due tomorrow.

Comments

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

Dude, Gus is so adorable as a toddler! I love him.

I knew Hunter had to come back. They can't just make him leave like that and never come back :(. And I love his "how can I achieve greatness without work" or something like that. Not sure if it's this episode, though.

Dude, living purely off fanfic is gonna be difficult. Painful. Sigh.

Heh, the propsal!scene and ending sex!scene was awesome. So hot. I love how Brian does the little face thing and goes "say it". Hee!

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I knew he had to come back, but I just wasn't thinking about him what with the explosion and the Brian/Justin love. So happy he's back, though. :d

I know. sigh. There better be loads of really awesome fanfic. And after it ends, I'm totally doing a full season marathon, if I can find the time. Then again, I watched the entire first 4 seasons right before AP tests, so if I can manage to do it then, surely I can manage to do it during the summer. Of course, it'll be kind of depressing, knowing how it ends. How about I just don't watch 513? I heard 512 is totally squee-worthy and lacks angst, so that can be my series finale: Brian and Justin headed towards marriage.

It was. It so was. guh. I've watched the end of 511 (and also the end of 510) like 500 times because they're so. fucking. awesome. sigh. I love those scenes so much. The only scene throughout the entire series I might like more than those would be the end of 122.

Ah dude I stayed up till like 1 AM last night and made loads of B/J icons from 510 and 511. Won't post them until after 511 airs, at least, though. I really, really like some of them. I want to use them, but I don't want to spoil anyone. blah. I'll try to have enough icons for an icon post after 511 has aired, though, so I can post them then.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

I know. I really want to find an excellent long series that's post-513 and has them eventually living together. Long, like Something Old. And just as good. This is totally on a tangent, but Something Old was awesome. I haven't read anything as long and just as awesome in forever. -sniffle-

Ending at 512 would be awesome. But you can't do that :P.

Icons! I love icons.

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Oh god, that would be so amazing. I want, I want, I want. Or something like Pheonix Rising. I don't know if you ever read that. Wasn't by Ducks, it was by Yahtzee, but it was like... this really long way into the future B/A fic. There was this really bad-ass vampire and so they resurrected a bunch of slayers, including Buffy, and Angel's still alive and there and it's so freaking awesome. Something Old's better, but yeah. Man, I haven't read Something Old in ages. I should. I haven't read any massive QAF fic, though, all standalones or short multi-parters. Someone definitely needs to tackle a massive post-513 happy ending for Brian and Justin.

Heh. I want to, though. sigh.

Hee. Me too. Icons are love. I want to post them now, but I shall wait.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

Yep, I read all the Ducks/Vatrixsta Cruden/Yahtzee/all the other random B/A author's fics. Heh. Even though like a lot of them were 'underage keep out' fics. But with QaF, only like 10% are PG-13 and lower.

Ducks never finished SO :(. She was still planning to write/finish Book 5, right? And it was never posted. So sad.

Fine >:O. Wait.

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Heh, I know.

Ducks came back to life, too, and I thought that maybe she'd finish it, but she didn't. She was planning on it, because there's the "BOOK 5 COMING SOON!" graphic thing, but... no. Never came. sigh.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

I wonder how her novel's doing. Aww, I miss the days when I was obsessed with B/A fanfiction and read it like ten hours a day.

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Awww, I know. And when I was on that site all the time reading fic. Except I don't remember what the site was. But I do remember it had an "I Will Remember You" layout! I haven't read B/A fanfiction in forever. blah.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

I think it was like basiamille.com or something. I should go check it out again.

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No, I'm talking about a different one. I forget what the site was called, but it was all B/A from loads of different authors. I spent so much time there.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

I think I'm gonna go re-read it someday. Even though I know what happens.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

I think I read all of Vatrixsta/Ducks' recommendations. Just cause I had no idea where to find good fic.

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Something Old? I totally have the urge to reread it now. All of Ducks stuff rocked, but Something Old was like... geez. Awesome. Next time I get bored and have nothing to do, I'm totally going to read it.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I loved her next-longest series a lot, too. Don't remember what it's called, though.

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Neither do I. She had a lot of awesome stuff. Something Old totally stands out on top, though.