brokenrecord

I can say, completely without exaggeration, that this is the busiest week of my life. I wasn't even this busy when I was preparing for APs (...of course, I didn't really prepare very well for APs, which is why I barely got any 5s) or any single time I've studied for finals. It's ridiculous. I have no idea why everything is taking so long. It's just like... a combination of several really unlucky factors plus the fact that two of the major things this week are group projects and it's just so difficult to find a time when everyone can meet (especially the 4-person group).

Seriously, this was my day yesterday: ( My day! )

Really the things that have totally screwed with this week to make it worse than it should be are two major factors. First, Li not showing up Saturday or Sunday. We might have actually been a little further in both projects if she had shown up. Also (a subset to this factor), the fact that I didn't finish my stats lab over the weekend. I'm regretting that so much right now. The other major thing, though, is that our professor in Differential Equations has been gone these two weeks and the guy who he got to teach in his absence is a guy that apparently can't do anything we're doing. He'll set up a problem which we can do, but then it comes to the difficult intergration and he's like "Oh, I'm not good at this stuff, I can't figure it out." So then we have no practice on the difficult part of it, and we've seen no examples of it, and then on the quiz (that we have each week) we have to do it and don't know how. And he lectures on stuff that has nothing to do what we're quizzed on, and he gives us no time for questions on the homework. And the homework doesn't even have anything to do with the quizzes either! AND he set up a problem before we took our quiz Tuesday but he set it up wrong and confused us and then we had a similar problem on the quiz and I screwed it up because he confused me with what he was saying before. And we have this project due and he doesn't know how to do the problems, but our normal professor isn't returning until tomorrow, when the project is due. UGH.

Anyway, the good thing about today is that it's halfway to spring break and I'm halfway through this week. I can't wait until Friday afternoon. I can finally catch up with TV and relax for a little bit. Today is going to be another ridiculous day. I've been up since 8 (even though I don't have class until 1! Evil!) and have been finishing my German homework (because I forgot a part I had to do) and working on the stats lab (which is almost done! And very wrong in many places, but whatever!) and Li's coming over soon to work on the lab and both projects. And then class, Wind Ensemble, meeting with differential equations group, and then probably working on the stats project some more. ugh. I really hate this week.

Ugh. I'm pretty sure my brain is about to explode. Partially due solely to astronomy (So, the universe has no center and is infinite, but is expanding. Oh, and the expansion is accelerating. And there is dark matter and dark energy and no one has any real clue what they are, and we only know what like 4% of the universe even is anyways), and also partially due to the million things I have to do in the next two and a half weeks (but mostly just this week). I originally had two 10-page papers due this week (one of which I finished this weekend! Go me for having something done! Well, I still need an abstract. But whatever, that'll take 5 seconds), but one got pushed back to Monday (when I also have a 5 page paper for another class due, but it still gives me more time for the other paper, so it's still good), but I still have a presentation on Thursday and a group presentation on Tuesday and my partner was supposed to meet me today at 4 and it's 6:49 and she never met with me and she's not in her room and did I mention she has all the results so I can't even do it on my own and get it done with, and I usually don't see her until Tuesday during geology but that's when our psych lab is due and al;skfj gah. I am stressed about this. I do know where her first class is tomorrow (it's in the same room as my first class, just an hour before), so I guess if I don't talk to her tonight, I can go to class really early tomorrow and stalk her. But I really wanted to get this done tonight because I was planning on spending tomorrow in the library getting one of my papers done, or at least the research for it, or maybe starting the presentation I have Thursday, or maybe starting to think about the presentation I have on Monday, and oh god, I'm starting to feel like my brain's going to explode again.

Yeah. Have I mentioned before how much I hate group projects? And that I really can't wait until this semester is over?

I also keep missing TV which sucks, and I might have to miss most of the shows I watch this week due to how much stuff is going on. blah. I mean, I guess it's not bad to have episodes saved up to watch if the writers' strike goes on, but still. I'm afraid I'm going to miss an episode or forget or something (and of course that would be the end of the world). Ok, it's not really a big deal. I just want to watch them now.

Also, I really want a new layout, since I've had this one since like May or June, but PSP is on my computer at home. I hate that there's no PSP for Mac. I freaking spent $70 on it (which is a lot when you have no job and are going from birthday/graduation/saved/etc. money alone) and then I can't even use it on my Mac. And Photoshop is like 30 billion dollars and whatever I already bought PSP and don't want to buy a million more programs anyways. And I could get Parallels and then use PSP on this computer, but then I'd have to also get a copy of Windows XP from somewhere, and at that point I might as well buy Photoshop for 30 billion dollars. sigh. Although it's not really like I have time to play around with PSP/Photoshop as it is considering the millions of things I have to do and gah I'm procrastinating way too much.

Ok. I'm going to try to get some more work done tonight, I'll go knock on the girl who I'm doing the project with's door again in about an hour, do some more work (maybe. If I can get motivated enough), take a shower, and watch Dexter. Brothers and Sisters will probably have to wait until tomorrow (even though I won't have time tomorrow! Damnit. Whatever, maybe I'll just stay up until 1 AM and watch it anyways (I have to watch it then because I use a Slingbox to watch my stuff which transmits the cable/DVR signal from home to here through the internet, but it's on CA time because that's where my DVR is, so Brothers and Sisters which is on at 10-11 there is 12-1 for me, which... I really can't stay up that late and still function normally tomorrow)). Um. I should start working and stop procrastinating.

So over the past few days I've been thinking, and I'm not going to send a letter to Vassar about how much I love the school and I would definitely go there if they took me off the waitlist (they encourage you to do that if it's your #1 school and you're on the waitlist because they want to take people off the waitlist who really want to go there over everywhere else) because it's not really true anymore. I'm really in love with Macalester. I've been looking into it a lot and it's just really awesome. And the benefits of Vassar aren't enough to outweigh what I think I would be losing by not going to Macalester. I'm staying on the waitlist because I already checked the box in pen, but I probably won't go if I'm taken off (although it's highly, highly unlikely I'll get off if I just sit and do nothing to tell them how much I love them), and I'm thinking I'm going to take myself off the waitlist by like the end of May. But yeah, anyways. It was kind of a big decision and I was struggling with it for a few days but now I'm really happy and so excited to go to Macalester. :D

These next few weeks are going to be kind of hell-ish for me, so I probably won't be around much. This week I have a combination of rehearsals for the musical (the Wind Ensemble is playing this medley of Miss Saigon, Les Miserables, and Grease before the musical [which isn't actually a musical, it's a musical revue of the musicals the school has put on in the past 10 years]) which are on Monday, Wednesday, and then the shows Thursday-Saturday, and I have a bunch of extra jazz band stuff, including the OC Fair Jazz Festival Friday and playing for the middle school parents' night on Wednesday. Plus I have a ridiculous amount of stuff due in English this week, most of which I haven't started (I need to do 10 lit journals by Friday. ugh). Then in two weeks is APs, so it's probably a good idea to start studying for those. At least for the French one, because if I get at least a 3, I can fulfill the language requirement at Macalester.

Ever since spring break ended, I've really felt like school should be over. I don't feel like doing any work and it just feels like everything should be done. sigh. At least it's two weeks of school, then two weeks of APs, and then after that only like 3 weeks until graduation. But it still seems like it's taking forever.

Today was pretty awful. Derek, one of my birds, died. He stopped eating on Monday morning and by this morning he couldn't hold himself up anymore. It wasn't totally unexpected because he's been sick for a long time, but I was still really upset about it. And it sucks too because it's like why are you so upset? and I'm like "My bird died" and it's like what? Bird? Who cares? But I had him since I was 6 years old and I'm 17 now, so that's way over half of my life. He didn't just sit in his cage all day and chirp; he had his own little personality and I don't know. I just really loved him. I'm still pretty upset about it and I probably will be for awhile, but I guess it's getting better.

On a happier note, but computer situation is fixed. Well, the computer itself isn't, but my mom e-mailed Dell and they e-mailed back and were like "OMG we're so sorry! We'll send you another computer right away!" It's like "...what? You're just going to send us a new computer?" Seems kind of weird, but whatever, I'll take it. It probably won't get here for a few weeks, and we're going skiing in Mammoth the day after New Years, so I might not have it awhile, but at least I'll have it eventually. And I don't have to feel guilty for asking my parents for a new computer!

Two more days left before winter break. Unfortunately, I have a lot of stuff to do, including studying for chem test, writing a french essay (I really need to start that tonight, but it's not likely), finish writing/editing the play for english, and physics test (except I decided to fail it since I can afford to drop a test since I have an A in the class right now even without a dropped test, so I probably won't bother studying for it). So I should probably start working on that now.

Ah! Galaxy got into Columbia early decision! Congrats! I'm so jealous. Not of the Columbia part (I wouldn't want to go there, personally. Hate the core curriculum), but the fact that she knows where she's going to go to college and she doesn't have to worry anymore and she doesn't really have to worry about her grades. But yeah, anyways, that's really awesome for her.

I've been sucking at being on livejournal, but I've been really busy. I was sick Monday and Tuesday-ish (missed 4th-6th period and jazz band Monday, and Symphony on Tuesday) and I have a lot of tests/quizzes and stuff and my grades are slipping and AP English is freaking me out (we have a proposal for a paper with like 6 body paragraphs due and we don't have to actually write it but I don't really know where to even start with it and all my essays in high school have been in class and so it was acceptable when they were only like one body paragraph and a page and a half. And we also have to write a 10-minute absurdist play in about two weeks, and I am even more lost about that) and yeah. I can't wait until second semester. I just wish first semester would end before winter break like most normal schools so I'd be done with it in just a few weeks. blah.

( Torchwood )

( Prison Break )

Nothing to say about Heroes, but I'm still really enjoying it. (I love Hiro! I doubt I'd love the show as much if it weren't for him.) Skipping Studio 60 tonight because I wanted to post this and I have a physics test, chem quiz, and French quiz to study for, and I've studied for them all some but I feel like I should study more (especially for physics). I'll watch it by Thursday, since Friday there's no school so I'll have plenty of time Thursday afternoon.

Ah but before studying for physics, I totally had this awesome dream last night. I was in like... Chicago, I think? (no idea why, never been there before and don't have a great desire to visit) and I think I was trying to see Wicked with someone? Someone was with me, but I don't remember who. Anyways for some reason I went into this stairwell at the place where I was trying to see Wicked and I was talking to my friend and all of a sudden there was John Krasinski! And he was chatting with BJ Novak and someone else for some reason there and I totally freaked out and when BJ Novak and the other person went away, I went up to him and started talking to him about how awesome The Office was and how much the last episode was hilarious and I talked to him for awhile and I got the impression that he thought I was kind of an idiot and looked down on me, but I totally didn't care because it was John Krasinksi.

Yeah. I was really sad to wake up from that.

Anyways. Time for more physics!

wtf I want my car back! 2-3 weeks ago when I first took it in they said it would be ready on the 5th, which was last Thursday. My mom told me it'd be like 3-4 weeks, so I was really happy with that, since it was sooner than I expected. But then Thursday they were like "We're almost done, we just got to do this thing, and you can have it Friday." Friday it wasn't done, but they said definitely Saturday. Saturday, still not done, but Monday! Monday it was almost finished, and on Tuesday they'd deliver it themselves to my house. Well, it's Tuesday, and now they're saying it'll be for sure done tomorrow. For some reason, I don't believe them. I mean, I'd be fine with if it they'd just told me in the first place it'd be like three weeks because I wasn't expecting it to be done so soon. And it doesn't even seem like they underestimated the time it would take, because each day they keep saying it'll be done the next day. It just makes me think they're saying it'll be done the next day to placate me when they know it really won't be done for like another week. The thing is, I'd rather they just tell me the truth about when it'll be done then lie to me.

Anyways. Hello to new friends from the fall friending meme! Just to let you (and the rest of my friends list who doesn't already know), I suck at checking my flist on Mondays and Tuesdays because Mondays I get home at 5:15, have until 8 to finish homework (and Mondays I usually have the most amount of homework), watch TV from 8-11, then sleep at 11 so I'm not dead at school the next day, and Tuesdays I don't get home till 8 because of Symphony, and then I watch TV till 10 and that usually doesn't give me enough time to do anything online. But I'll catch up on everything tomorrow afternoon.

Now for TV stuff! Some of this probably doesn't need to go behind a cut, and I don't think I have a lot to say about anything, but here we go anyways:

( Heroes )

( Studio 60 )

( Gilmore Girls )

( Veronica Mars )

blah. I still have French homework to finish. Off to do that now.

gah. I just finished watching the Arrested Development Season 3 DVDs, and I don't know why I thought I could watch it all again, because I'm still totally not over it being cancelled yet. Especially that featurette, the one of their last day on location, on the Queen Mary. I started tearing up during that, with Will Arnett talking to the crew about like how happy he had been to work there, and I think he was kind of tearing up at the end, or at least his voice was breaking or something. And Jason Bateman's clips during that talking about the show and how much he loved his job and everyone on the show and how amazing everyone was. It's just... gah. You can see how great that cast and crew must've been, and how none of them were ready to let the show go yet. sigh. And now I'm just depressed. :( I watched everything except the episodes with commentary, but I'll probably save that. Tomorrow I'll be watching The Office DVDs, so that should make me happier.

Yeah, I guess that's all I wanted to say. Sorry I've been such a crappy LJ friend recently, but it's not going to get any better for awhile, probably. Once marching band and college apps and first semester are over, it should be much better.

So tired, but at least it's all over.

( AP Euro )

( SAT IIs )

It was really irritating on Friday, I would be doing like last minute cramming, and everyone would feel the need to talk to me. Especially this one guy. He's this guy that sits in front of me during Euro and I kind of know him from middle school and sometimes we'll talk about math because I have pre-calc with him and he'll just chat with me a little, and usually it's nice because I don't really have any other friends in Euro besides Seher (who's not really a great friend of mine). But geez. Friday during Euro I was clearly intensely studying my notes and taking a practice test and such, and he kept turning around and asking "Wait, I don't understand this math problem" or not even asking my for help, but just talking about random stuff. I mean, I'm clearly trying to study. Why the hell are you trying to ruin my concentration? ugh.

Anyways. Today after the SAT II I was waiting for my mom to pick me up (...not sure why I didn't drive myself, but oh well) and I decided to check my cell phone messages for the first time since like January, and there were these two really bizarre messages. The first was from this guy saying "I hope you enjoyed the game Saturday. I see you're interested in getting tickets to Clippers games" and such, and it was from February, and wtf? I don't watch basketball, go to basketball games, or like the Clippers (I loved the Lakers when I was like 8 and watched all their games, so I still have this slight preference for them now even though they suck and I don't watch basketball anymore). It was weird. The second was from this guy who called to ask me about this two bedroom, two bathroom house/apartment he was interested in buying/renting from me. I don't understand how these people got my cell phone number.

Nothing else has been happening much. I can't believe it's May already! We only have like 6 weeks of school left! (Those of you who only have like 3-4 weeks, I hate you.) And I feel so weird now that everything's over. I have nothing to worry about now: finals shouldn't be too bad since the final I was really cramming for last semester was Euro, and I've already taken that (97 on multiple choice with the curve, no idea on essays yet, but shouldn't be too terrible). All my other classes don't require nearly as much studying. I'm so used to, for the past like month, thinking "Crap, can't make icons/go on LJ/watch TV/etc. because I have to study for Euro/Math IIC/French!" It feels so weird to not have to study on a Saturday.

Anyways. That's about it. So glad everything's done. Good luck to anyone who still has an AP exam next week!

Edit: Ah, I forgot I also wanted to say, that my mom's totally into Doctor Who now. I don't know if I mentioned that I told her to watch as it aired on the Sci-Fi Network and she did and at first she thought it was entertaining but didn't think it was anything that would really hook her, but she's been watching every episode (she doesn't even need me to remind her to record it anymore when she goes out Fridays), and she absolutely loved the episode last week, with Rose's dad (momentary blanking on title), and she was talking to me about it for awhile. So now, I've managed to convert her to Doctor Who, Arrested Development, and Wonderfalls (well, kind of. She really liked it, but not as much as DW or AD). Still have yet to show her VM, but I will make her watch it eventually.

Is it possible to have senioritis when I'm only a junior? Because I think I have it. I mean, before it was like... half of me wanted to be out of high school and get to go off to college, and the other half didn't want to leave my friends and life here and didn't want greater responsibility and work. But recently it's been... a lot more of me wanting to be out of high school and off to college. And it's not even that high school's becoming horrible because it's not, it's actually really great, far better than last year. But I keep looking into colleges for my assignment for my college counselor that I go to outside of school, and looking at courses you can take and stuff and I'll just be like "omg I want to take that course" or "omg it would be sooooo amazing to go there". I don't know, there are still good things about being here and being in high school, but right now I think the pros for going to college outweigh the pros for staying here. =/ At least next week I get to go to Boston and visit bunches of colleges. That should be excellent.

( Babbling about English )

So, I don't think I'm going to be around very much for the next four weeks. Four weeks from now is when I have my AP test and SAT II's and I also have a final in Euro the week before my actual AP Euro exam, and I really need to start studying for it. And of course next week I'll be in Boston. So yeah, I'm going to try to cut down on LJ time and TV (of course, there are some shows, such as Veronica Mars, that there's no chance I'm not seeing the second they air).