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Home for lunch because I forgot my tenor sax at home and I kind of need it for 6th period and jazz band, so I figured I might as well update. Section leader results posted today, and they all went pretty much as expected. Emma got sax section leader. It was expected, and she'll do a great job, but it's still really disappointing. I mean, I really wanted it, more than anyone probably knew. sigh. Oh well.

ugh, but it's irritating, because people have really not been comforting about this. All this week people have been saying to Emma right in front of me "Oh, don't worry, you know you have it." Like, even if I know she's going to get it, it doesn't make me feel any better hearing it constantly. It hurts. And my mom was all when I told her Emma would probably get it "Oh, well, you can't be upset about that, at least. She'll do a good job." Yes, I can be upset about it. I freaking want to be it myself. And when I was trying to talk to Galaxy about it, she was just all "You don't like talking in front of people anyways!" ...which, no. Not the same thing. And it doesn't mean I didn't want it.

blah. But I actually feel better now than I did when I didn't know because the wait to find out was just... terrible. I felt nauseous pretty much all morning until I saw the results.

Tired. And I really don't want to go back to school (even though all I have left is Wind Ensemble and jazz band, and jazz band's only an hour today). I just feel like staying here and sleeping, or making icons, or reading, or something.

Edit: Oh, btw, I don't know how much I'm going to be around the next two weeks. Next week is our last week, and then the week after we have finals. In addition to that, I just kind of feel out of it and not much like updating or replying to comments or anything. So yeah, I might not be around much these two weeks, but after that it should be better.

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A slightly more positive post than my last:

1) Oh, man, I just watched the season 1 finale of Doctor Who. I always forget how freaking amazing that episode is. It's definitely one of my favorite episodes of television ever. I mean, "my doctor" and "You were fantastic. And you know what? So was I" and just everything. sigh. I cry from like start to finish, it's just so amazing.

2) My French teacher decided randomly, after telling us that our final was going to be 200 points and would consist of 50 multiple choice and a like 500 word in-class essay, to cancel our final. She didn't give a reason, but I'm pretty sure it's just because she didn't want to have to write the final or grade them. But whatever, I'm not complaining. Unfortunately, her complete asshole-ish-ness to Galaxy totally takes away from cancelling our final. She accused Galaxy and Kimberly of copying each other on this French packet we had to do (based on the fact that one sentence in each of their paragraphs was similar. It didn't even have the same construction) and so she took like half off the 127 point packet for Galaxy and it brought her 91 down to an 88. Bitch. She seriously just hates Galaxy. She needs to be fired, like, now.

3) I got selected for this freshman mentoring program (called IMPACT) I applied for in like April which I thought I had been rejected to since it's been like 2 months since I applied. We had a training sort of session Thursday and I'm in this group with a bunch of people I don't know and it sucks and I have no idea why my team leader chose me and I wish she hadn't because if she hadn't then Richard could've and I would be in a group with Richard, Galaxy, Andrew, and Michele Wong. sigh. So much better. We did some stupid activities and I'm not so sure about this so far, but I like the idea of what it's going to be in the fall, so I guess I'll stick with it. Hopefully I'll get to know my team better and it won't suck as much.

4) I'm... kind of feeling fine about the whole section leader thing, now. I mean, it's not that I didn't want it, because I really did, but I think the wait was worse than pretty much anything else. Finally knowing is just kind of a relief. And I vented all my frustrations earlier, so I've gotten those out. Yeah, I would like to be section leader, but Emma will do a great job, I'm sure, and hopefully it'll be a lot of fun next year. So now I just have to concentrate on getting appointed as Historian for BEC. I'm kind of nervous about that because I think there are a good number of people trying out and I really want it, but I have several reasons why I think they should choose me which I'll tell them and hopefully they'll choose me.

5) I watched De-Lovely tonight before Doctor Who. I heart John Barrowman. And his voice! ah! Such a lovely voice! Small part, but I loved every minute he was on screen. ...heh, and, of course, the rest was good too. I was just kind of distracted during it, so I don't think I enjoyed it as much as I should have, but oh well.

6) I can't believe there's only 1 real week of school left (and then of course finals, but that week doesn't really count). It seems like I've been waiting for the end of school for awhile, and all of a sudden it's here and it doesn't seem real. I almost don't want it to end now, just because it's been such an awesome year. A million times better than sophomore year, and even better than freshman year. Here's to hoping next year is even better.