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Oct. 21st, 2005 11:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brokenrecordToday was so freaking good. We had an away game against Northwood, so we decided to hang out after practice. I drove Emma and Jessica, and Zi drove Jackie, Ariel, and Galaxy, and we went to Heritage Park Center. My car arrived first because Zi ended up stopping at home for something, and so we found that we couldn't play pool like we wanted to because there was a middle school dance going on there, or something. But it ended up being good, because we just hung out at the park. Then Zi, Galaxy, Jackie, and Ariel arrived and to hide I jumped overboard (because we were in this play-ship thing! It made sense at the time) and then I guess I died and Galaxy raped me, which kind of sucked. Then we just kind of hung around and took pictures of all of us with Zi being all creepy and stalker-ish behind us. It was much fun. I need to steal those pictures from Emma if she manages to get them uploaded.
After that, we drove to Irvine Stadium for the away game. It was loads of fun, mostly just because Emma and I were being ridiculous the entire time. We made up a rap for both Parsa (...I feel like I'm spelling this wrong for some reason) and Jonathan, the other tenors, (Parsa's consisted of saying "Par-SAH" with a thumbs up on the "SAH" and Jonathan's was "John-O" with a wink and fingers and raised eyebrow that I really can't describe. They were good) and then I think one song for Jonathan and 2 or 3 for Parsa, except I can only remember one of Parsa's. Yeah. It was pretty ridiculous, but lots of fun. My throat hurt from laughing so much by the end.
Then pretty much everyone went to Denny's because it's like a minute away from the Stadium and that's what we used to do for all games before we started taking the buses to and from the home games. I don't know what to say about that really, except that I ended up laughing a lot more and yeah. It was really good.
It's actually really surprising how good this year has been for me socially so far. I don't know. Like freshman year, it was good for like 2 or 3 months, and then around November I started feeling really lonely and like no one liked me and stuff, and I started getting more friendly with people around March and feeling better. But then last year somehow at the beginning of the year all the friendships were like reset somehow, and instead of feeling good for a few months, I just felt horribly alone and depressed from like September to February/March. And things started getting better from then on, and in June things were pretty good. But for this year, I didn't want to expect too much because things had ended well freshman year, and then it went all blah again. But so far it's actually been really good. I don't know. I've been feeling a lot happier and like I do actually have some friends, and yeah.
And I don't know. I think a lot of actually has to do with livejournal, because it's helped me to be a little less insecure and a little more outgoing. Because before I'd totally freak out before posting comments to other people and second-guess myself and all and it'd be really bad, and now it's just not as big of a deal. And I'd freak out way more before posting, and now again it isn't a big deal. And it's just helped me not to... I guess stand in the background and watch as stuff goes on around me. Because that's essentially how I spent all of last year, even the better parts of the year, and it sucked. And I think it does help that now I'm a junior and I know the seniors better, and freshman and sophomore year I was a little more like... I don't know. Uncomfortable around them? But still. I don't know. Just, yeah. I feel a lot more comfortable in general around people and more comfortable talking to other people. It's good.
Tomorrow should be pretty awesome as well. I'm volunteering at the animal shelter from 10:30-11:30ish, then off to Westpark at noon to watch a movie with a bunch of people (either Wallace and Gromit or Corpse Bride. I mean, I'll be pushing for Serenity, but I don't think I'll be able to convince them to see it, so eh. It's ok. I'm fine with seeing either of those movies), and then going to Irvine Comp at Irvine Stadium at... 3? I think? Irvine Comp is a marching band tournament and we marched in it freshman year but not last year, so instead we went to see it last year and it was fun so... doing it again this year! Anyways, it should be good.
After that, we drove to Irvine Stadium for the away game. It was loads of fun, mostly just because Emma and I were being ridiculous the entire time. We made up a rap for both Parsa (...I feel like I'm spelling this wrong for some reason) and Jonathan, the other tenors, (Parsa's consisted of saying "Par-SAH" with a thumbs up on the "SAH" and Jonathan's was "John-O" with a wink and fingers and raised eyebrow that I really can't describe. They were good) and then I think one song for Jonathan and 2 or 3 for Parsa, except I can only remember one of Parsa's. Yeah. It was pretty ridiculous, but lots of fun. My throat hurt from laughing so much by the end.
Then pretty much everyone went to Denny's because it's like a minute away from the Stadium and that's what we used to do for all games before we started taking the buses to and from the home games. I don't know what to say about that really, except that I ended up laughing a lot more and yeah. It was really good.
It's actually really surprising how good this year has been for me socially so far. I don't know. Like freshman year, it was good for like 2 or 3 months, and then around November I started feeling really lonely and like no one liked me and stuff, and I started getting more friendly with people around March and feeling better. But then last year somehow at the beginning of the year all the friendships were like reset somehow, and instead of feeling good for a few months, I just felt horribly alone and depressed from like September to February/March. And things started getting better from then on, and in June things were pretty good. But for this year, I didn't want to expect too much because things had ended well freshman year, and then it went all blah again. But so far it's actually been really good. I don't know. I've been feeling a lot happier and like I do actually have some friends, and yeah.
And I don't know. I think a lot of actually has to do with livejournal, because it's helped me to be a little less insecure and a little more outgoing. Because before I'd totally freak out before posting comments to other people and second-guess myself and all and it'd be really bad, and now it's just not as big of a deal. And I'd freak out way more before posting, and now again it isn't a big deal. And it's just helped me not to... I guess stand in the background and watch as stuff goes on around me. Because that's essentially how I spent all of last year, even the better parts of the year, and it sucked. And I think it does help that now I'm a junior and I know the seniors better, and freshman and sophomore year I was a little more like... I don't know. Uncomfortable around them? But still. I don't know. Just, yeah. I feel a lot more comfortable in general around people and more comfortable talking to other people. It's good.
Tomorrow should be pretty awesome as well. I'm volunteering at the animal shelter from 10:30-11:30ish, then off to Westpark at noon to watch a movie with a bunch of people (either Wallace and Gromit or Corpse Bride. I mean, I'll be pushing for Serenity, but I don't think I'll be able to convince them to see it, so eh. It's ok. I'm fine with seeing either of those movies), and then going to Irvine Comp at Irvine Stadium at... 3? I think? Irvine Comp is a marching band tournament and we marched in it freshman year but not last year, so instead we went to see it last year and it was fun so... doing it again this year! Anyways, it should be good.
