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Feb. 7th, 2009 11:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
brokenrecordI got a letter in my box yesterday inviting me to join Psi Chi, the National Honor Society in Psychology, based on my grades. Pretty cool. I don't know exactly what it does. It says some stuff about being a reference for life and I don't know what else. It was totally random and not what I was expecting when I went to my mailbox, though.
What I was expecting was my books and DVDs my mom sent a week ago which still aren't here. gr. Now it's less that I want the books and DVDs and more that I'm concerned that they haven't arrived yet. The post office better not have lost them or I'll be really pissed off.
I had my first test of the semester yesterday in German. It went very well, I think? The listening was absolutely terrible since she only let us hear it once but none of us knew that beforehand and last semester our professor let us hear it twice, so after the first time we were all "Can we hear it again?" and she was like "No." And I had planned to be able to hear it again, so I only focused on certain parts, and yeah. But whatever, I've never been amazing at listening, anyways. I'm not good at it in English, really, either. Like, when people would read aloud poems or a passage from a book or whatever in English classes in high school, I could never keep focused on what they were saying and absorb the information; I always had to read along or else I'd never get it. And I remember in elementary school we took these tests to see what kind of learners we were (there was like... visual, auditory, and kinesthetic or some other word that meant you learned by actually doing things) and I was like 100% a visual learner and was terrible at auditory learning. Random fact about me, I guess! But the rest of the test went really, really well. And I think she likes me for some reason. So that's good.
We got assigned a research project in Multivariate Stats and I'm totally dreading it. Especially now because I'm regretting switching from Linear Algebra to Multivariate Stats. Not because the class sucks, because it doesn't. I'm really liking it so far (except for this project). But because I've changed my mind again about... basically, what I want to do after college and majoring in math and all that.
Ok, so last semester I decided I wanted to double major in math and psychology because I decided I really loved math and I wasn't sure what I wanted to do after college but I knew that I didn't want to get a PhD because those are focused on research and I am totally uninterested in research and the thought of writing a dissertation scares the crap out of me. And I was already majoring in psychology, but I figured if I double majored then I'd have some options. I could do something related to math (...I'm not really sure what, but, you know, something). And I was also thinking that if I wanted to be a teacher (which I've always kind of wanted to be), then I'd want to be a math teacher. And so that was the plan, I'd double major, and I went through a lot of stuff to try to figure out if it was even possible to double major and continue in German, and it was if I went through a bunch of stuff like taking Multivariate Stats this semester and Linear Algebra over the summer at UCI and also taking a class or two probably next summer, too, and not doing study abroad.
Anyway, fast forward to last Wednesday when I was doing homework for RIP II and it was basically just asking what area of psychology I'm interested in and why and to look at journals in that field and stuff, and I don't know. I guess I just kind of remembered that I really love clinical psychology. And I was looking into it, and you can get this thing called a PsyD to be a clinical psychologist rather than a PhD, and it's focused more on like... applied psychology and real-world stuff and not on research, and that just sounds perfect for me. And all of a sudden, I was like "I want to do this."
And I don't know, my problem is that I decide to do something and then a month later all of a sudden I've changed my mind again. But after this semester I'm going to be half-way through college (laksjf how the hell did that happen?) and I feel like I need to decide on something already. And I was already reconsidering the whole double major thing before that because it would be a LOT of work to do, and I'd have to do two capstones which would probably drive me crazy since the thought of doing one is freaking me out a little. So right now I'm thinking I want to do what my original plan was when I came to school: major in psych, minor in math, and become a clinical psychologist. Of course, the thought of more school after college is not entirely pleasant. I'm getting really tired of studying and writing papers and homework and all that's involved with being in school. But I don't know. This just seems to make the most sense for me.
Of course I'll probably change my mind again in a few weeks.
What I was expecting was my books and DVDs my mom sent a week ago which still aren't here. gr. Now it's less that I want the books and DVDs and more that I'm concerned that they haven't arrived yet. The post office better not have lost them or I'll be really pissed off.
I had my first test of the semester yesterday in German. It went very well, I think? The listening was absolutely terrible since she only let us hear it once but none of us knew that beforehand and last semester our professor let us hear it twice, so after the first time we were all "Can we hear it again?" and she was like "No." And I had planned to be able to hear it again, so I only focused on certain parts, and yeah. But whatever, I've never been amazing at listening, anyways. I'm not good at it in English, really, either. Like, when people would read aloud poems or a passage from a book or whatever in English classes in high school, I could never keep focused on what they were saying and absorb the information; I always had to read along or else I'd never get it. And I remember in elementary school we took these tests to see what kind of learners we were (there was like... visual, auditory, and kinesthetic or some other word that meant you learned by actually doing things) and I was like 100% a visual learner and was terrible at auditory learning. Random fact about me, I guess! But the rest of the test went really, really well. And I think she likes me for some reason. So that's good.
We got assigned a research project in Multivariate Stats and I'm totally dreading it. Especially now because I'm regretting switching from Linear Algebra to Multivariate Stats. Not because the class sucks, because it doesn't. I'm really liking it so far (except for this project). But because I've changed my mind again about... basically, what I want to do after college and majoring in math and all that.
Ok, so last semester I decided I wanted to double major in math and psychology because I decided I really loved math and I wasn't sure what I wanted to do after college but I knew that I didn't want to get a PhD because those are focused on research and I am totally uninterested in research and the thought of writing a dissertation scares the crap out of me. And I was already majoring in psychology, but I figured if I double majored then I'd have some options. I could do something related to math (...I'm not really sure what, but, you know, something). And I was also thinking that if I wanted to be a teacher (which I've always kind of wanted to be), then I'd want to be a math teacher. And so that was the plan, I'd double major, and I went through a lot of stuff to try to figure out if it was even possible to double major and continue in German, and it was if I went through a bunch of stuff like taking Multivariate Stats this semester and Linear Algebra over the summer at UCI and also taking a class or two probably next summer, too, and not doing study abroad.
Anyway, fast forward to last Wednesday when I was doing homework for RIP II and it was basically just asking what area of psychology I'm interested in and why and to look at journals in that field and stuff, and I don't know. I guess I just kind of remembered that I really love clinical psychology. And I was looking into it, and you can get this thing called a PsyD to be a clinical psychologist rather than a PhD, and it's focused more on like... applied psychology and real-world stuff and not on research, and that just sounds perfect for me. And all of a sudden, I was like "I want to do this."
And I don't know, my problem is that I decide to do something and then a month later all of a sudden I've changed my mind again. But after this semester I'm going to be half-way through college (laksjf how the hell did that happen?) and I feel like I need to decide on something already. And I was already reconsidering the whole double major thing before that because it would be a LOT of work to do, and I'd have to do two capstones which would probably drive me crazy since the thought of doing one is freaking me out a little. So right now I'm thinking I want to do what my original plan was when I came to school: major in psych, minor in math, and become a clinical psychologist. Of course, the thought of more school after college is not entirely pleasant. I'm getting really tired of studying and writing papers and homework and all that's involved with being in school. But I don't know. This just seems to make the most sense for me.
Of course I'll probably change my mind again in a few weeks.
