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I thought this was pretty funny, but... I'm not feeling the spark from this show anymore. I don't know if it's because the Barney/Robin break-up was just so utterly disappointing for me and that's all I can think about when I watch the show, or if it's genuinely not as funny and has been having worse storylines since the previous seasons. I feel like I am not objective enough to determine which it is.

And I keep desperately hoping for more of a storyline coming out of the Barney/Robin split. We had that thing with the guy at Robin's work at the end of that one episode, which I thought we were meant to take that she was going to fall in love with him, but that hasn't been brought up again. Robin briefly mentioned "I dated that guy" about Barney in this episode, but... that was it. And there was like no emotion or regret or anything. I mean, I don't know, maybe it's just because I'm a crazy shipper, but I feel like after Barney was in love with Robin for over a year and pined after her and felt so crazy jealous over Ted sleeping with her again that he bought TVs so he could smash them and got down on one knee behind Robin as Marshall was talking about Robin could marry a US citizen so she wouldn't be sent back to Canada and after he got her a job so she could stay in the U.S. and after he flew "across the Atlantic" to Canada to bring her back and I don't know, after EVERYTHING, that all that would have some sort of impact or effect or... I don't know! Barney would be missing Robin more. I'd be fine if we're leading up to a point where Barney realizes that after going back to random hook-ups and meaningless sex, that despite enjoying all that, he really misses what he had with Robin or realizes he's still in love with her or something. I just hate how it feels like they hit a reset button to early season 3, you know? How is where any of the characters are right now any different from then? Ted's realizing that he doesn't want random girls, he's ready to find "The One"(which, come on, HOW MANY TIMES HAS HE HAD THIS REALIZATION NOW? I realize Stella leaving him at the alter affected him, but STILL. It feels like every few episodes Ted is like "WAIT I REALIZE THAT I AM A ROMANTIC AND I WANT TO SETTLE DOWN AND I NEED TO FIND THE WOMAN I WILL MARRY!"), Marshall and Lily are married and in love and have their own apartment and are adorable, Robin doesn't have a serious boyfriend and isn't interested in finding one, and Barney has sex with random women and treats them terribly. And that was fine for the beginning of season 3, but one of the reasons I fell in love with this show was character development and on-going plots, and I don't enjoy when characters are at a stand-still, or worse, going backwards.

ugh sorry, I didn't mean to ramble that much about how dissatisfied I am right now with this season. Maybe it's just me and everyone else is loving this season? I don't know. I'm still holding out hope that this season is going somewhere.



HA OMG I LOVE THAT PENNY KNOWS WHY SHELDON WANTS TO SIT IN HIS PARTICULAR SPOT.

lol I feel like I read a fanfic like this once, with Sheldon keeping a scientific journal involving Penny. And at some point he tried kissing her as part of his experiment or something. I don't know, it was awesome.

This episode was really great, but it needed way more Raj. What even happened to him after Penny asked to talk to Sheldon alone? He might have been in the very last scene (he probably was), but he kind of just disappeared for most of the episode. The next episode better have a huge Raj storyline!

Also, I mean... ok. Obviously I don't like Penny/Leonard at all. But trying to look at their relationship objectively (which is probably impossible for me, but let's try), WHY ARE THEY TOGETHER? They've stopped really focusing on their relationship at all, I think, since the start of the season and maybe like one random episode. So I'm not getting any feeling whatsoever that they're in love or have feelings for each other. They mention that they're in a relationship, but I just feel a disconnect between what they say and what they show, you know? ...not that I want more relationship stuff between them, but really Leonard just came back in the premiere and Penny suddenly kissed them and then they had bad sex and then they had better sex and then they were a couple. It's just so boring. Even episodes like this last one which technically have a lot to do with their relationship really don't focus on them. They've been using Sheldon/Penny as a way to make Leonard/Penny stuff more interesting. I don't know, the whole thing just seems weird. I mean, it totally works if they wanted to get their relationship out of the way and show how they're wrong for each other and the only reason Leonard's interested in Penny is because she's hot and gives him attention. But I always got the feeling that the creators/writers (at least through last season) thought Leonard/Penny was OTP and have loads of chemistry and are totally sweet together and whatever else. I don't know what's going on anymore.

(Also, this is so random, but I was reading this post from a Leonard/Penny shipper and it mentioned something about being so irritated by people saying Penny and Leonard have no chemistry but they're probably dating in real life so I guess her conclusion was "CLEARLY THEY DO HAVE CHEMISTRY" and it was just like... so what? For one thing, they haven't confirmed they're together. For another, actors can totally have zero chemistry on-screen and be together in real life. And isn't there some sort of saying or... thought or something that has to do with like... if actors have chemistry on-screen then they're not doing it because they still have sexual tension, but if they don't have chemistry on-screen then they're in a relationshp. Or something. I feel like I learned that from Friends, but it might have been... Growing Pains? lol I don't even know. But anyways, I'm sorry, there's just zero spark or any sort of sexual attraction between them.)

I talked to my roommate about the whole "One of the four of us needs to move out next fall" thing, and she said that if I moved out she'd come with me. And that if I absolutely wanted to stay, she'd move out and live on-campus for next year. So I feel less stressed out about that. I think I'd rather both of us move out and get a 2-bedroom apartment instead. I really love all my roommates, as I've said, but it's definitely easier sharing an apartment between 2 people than with 5. But whatever, we don't need to figure this out until next semester anyways.

I have been slacking so hard these past few days. I was going to talk to my Directed Research adviser Monday morning, and then didn't. That afternoon/night I was going to work more on my paper for the class and my presentation that's Wednesday, and I didn't. This morning first I was going to go to the library and work a little after Discrete Math and then go to talk to her, and I didn't. I went back to my apartment, and I was like "I'll just hang around for an hour, I need to relax a little, and then I'll go talk to her," and, shockingly, I didn't. I should have known I wouldn't want to go outside again, though; I nearly froze to death going to and from Discrete Math. My goal now is to work on the presentation and be done with it by 3 or 4 and then e-mail her my poster and ask her what she thinks. I really should go in and talk to her about the discussion since she sent me an e-mail about how I would have to rewrite a lot of it based on my results (since I had to write the discussion draft before I analyzed my results, so I kind of sketched a rough outline of what it would be assuming I got results supporting my hypothesis, which of course I didn't), and I should probably check with her to make sure what I'm saying is reasonable and that I'm not missing anything. But whatever. I've run out of motivation and energy for this semester.

Also, I may have had my last Discrete Math class today! I mean, class is canceled on Thursday, and I'm planning right now on ditching next Tuesday since it's the last day of classes, it's the only class I have that day, the final is a take-home that he's posting on-line on Wednesday and he said he's not going to discuss it or give any help on it, and he handed back the drafts of Project 3 today. I just don't see a point in waking up at 7 AM to go to a class I hate when there's nothing I'll get out of it. So unless something happens to change my mind (like he requires attendance or we all fail the final or something, which I don't think is likely), I'm not going. It was so hard dragging myself out of bed today to go to that class, and the only thing really getting me going was knowing that it was the last one, so I really don't want to go next week.

ugh I have to go grocery shopping this afternoon, but I so don't want to. It's so cold, and I always end up having to wait for the bus for like 20 minutes, and I could barely stand 10 minutes walking from my apartment to class. And it's snowing. And I just want to stay in bed all day. Why can't I just be home already?

(Wow, this post is pretty much just me bitching and complaining. Sorry! I will be in much better spirits in 11 days, I promise!)