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[brokenrecord]

After spending several hours cleaning my room, I have come to two conclusions: A) there are far too many spiders in my room, and B) I am terribly afraid of spiders. Not all spiders, really. I'm fine with the daddy long legs that are thin, look frail, and live in plain site in my bathroom. But the thicker, darker ones? Horribly afraid of them. In my room, I found 2 baby spiders, which didn't really freak me out too much, as they were about the size of a speck of dust (...um, except for one, which took me by surprise by moving very quickly out of nowhere and caused me to freak out and kill it before realizing that it was very, very tiny and would cause me no harm). But on the other side of my room, in the corner, I found a good-sized, thick, dark spider and it scared the flying fuck out of me. I'm still nervous to go over there. I quickly abandoned cleaning that side of the room. I'll go back to it tomorrow. Uh. Probably.

Anyways. This is really all I've been doing today. The morning I squandered away doing absolutely nothing online. Then in the early afternoon, I started organizing my papers in some boxes in my room and finding stuff to put up on my walls (magazine pages and some photos). Then, after awhile, I moved on to deciding to just completely organize everything in my room. I've done... very little so far. But, as I said, I'm a little too freaked out by the spider to venture to the other side of the room, as I didn't see where it scampered off to. heh. I'm such a baby.

No plans for tomorrow. Well, Emma and Andrew sort of invited me to this big thing at Irvine Stadium where a bunch of people I know are going where there'll be food and games and then fireworks-watching. I was thinking about going, but I've been feeling kind of anti-social today, so I don't know. I'll see how I feel tomorrow.

On Tuesday is a band gathering at Boomers Palace Park and then dinner somewhere. I was considering going for awhile, but then I remembered I have SAT class from 4-7, and the thing starts at 2. Even then, I was thinking about going for just an hour or two and then going straight to SAT class, but then my mom told me I have a hair appointment in the morning. Going to cut and re-straighten my hair. My hair used to be super-curly and I absolutely hated it, so I had it straightened last summer. It's actually stayed pretty straight. Only guaranteed to last like... 6 months, but it's been like 10 now and it's still pretty straight. Still, it's getting way too long, so I really want to cut it (not too short, just slightly below my shoulders) and I might as well restraighten it, because in a few months, it'll probably be a lot curlier. So, I guess that shoots any thoughts of going to the thing on Tuesday. It's ok, though. I might not even have decided to go, anyways.

Yeah, so it's been a pretty nothing day. I guess I'll move on and clean the next section of my room, provided I stop freaking out over the stupid spider.

Comments

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

Teh spider will eat you when you sleep.

[http://users.livejournal.com/brokenrecord__/]

It could! I don't care as much about that, though, as long as I'm asleep and it's not there when I wake up. If it just comes onto my bed, devours my leg or something, and then goes far, far away, then it'll be all right.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you won't feel it as it devours your leg.

Uh, what if you wake up and it's like BOOM! there? That'd be bad.

[http://users.livejournal.com/brokenrecord__/]

Yeah, I've already thought of that situation and have been freaking out about the idea for the past 10 or so minutes. I don't think it will, though, because spiders don't usually act like that. They usually stick to dark, hidden, tight spaces. ...which is why I'm terrified of trying to clean the other side of my room. Afraid that the second I move something, there it'll be. [shivers] But even though I know that it's logically not likely that it'll be there when I wake up, I think I'll probably still be freaking out about it for a little while. guh.

[violetmist2003.livejournal.com]

Aww. I just love coming up with nice happy ideas.

[http://users.livejournal.com/brokenrecord__/]

Heh. Yeah, you're so helpful.

[beaute--exquise.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if I'm allowed to reply to your non icon posts but I couldn't help read through the spider paragraph.

I'm not afraid of spiders but I have evacuated my room after finding a spider on my pillow. Well, I first found it on my pillow, picked it up with paper, put it outside and suddenly it was on my wall next to the window which I had just put it out of. It freaked me out and I now sleep in the next room. I have vowed to clean my room tomorrow and look for any spiders that may still be around, I don't mind them but I really can't sleep knowing that one might crawl up my nose or into my ear. (Not sure if that is a myth or true)

[http://users.livejournal.com/brokenrecord__/]

You're totally allowed to reply to my non-icon posts. :)

The thing is, I usually don't get this freaked out by spiders. There's loads in my bathroom, for some reason, and when I see one in the shower I kill it and it's no problem. Or, if it's just in the corner of the room, then I leave it alone. But for some reason, it really freaks me out that I don't know where it is. And this type of spider in particular freaks me out. It looks a lot more vicious than the kind, weak spiders. I'm fine with it being in my room if I don't see it ever again, if it just hides behind my dresser or something, but if it scurries out from under some papers, or I wake up and find it in my bed (oh god, now I'm going to freak out about that for like an hour), then I'll get majorly freaked out.

[cristi-is-here.livejournal.com]

Oy! I share your fear of spiders. Nyaghuhg. (I wasn't sure if I could really spell that.) They freak me out. Something like that happened to me a month or so ago. I was cleaning out my closet and a big ugly black spider like the one you described ran out and then ran back in. I couldn't open my closet for days. I still haven't found it. :/

[http://users.livejournal.com/brokenrecord__/]

eep, scary. It's the not knowing where the spider is right now that's really freaking me out. I have these boxes where I'm putting all the papers I'm cleaning up in, and it was on one of the papers and landed there, and I was fine with it just staying there. But then all of a sudden it started climbing out of the box, and before I knew it, it was gone. Now I'm afraid that if I move any of the papers over where it disappeared, I'll suddenly find it, waiting to attack me (...ok, that may be a bit of an overstatement).

[campmotha.livejournal.com]

Oh i hate Spiders, i used to kill them but now i do my best to live around but when they get to close i have to catch them and set them free outside on the opposite siode of the house to my room.

Good luck finding the spider.

Cut it go on, You know you want to.

[http://users.livejournal.com/brokenrecord__/]

I used to try to leave spiders alone, and when I think about it, I feel bad about killing them, but... then I see them, get freaked out, lose all reason, and just catch them. Thanks, I hope I find it and get rid of it soon. :)

[sky-dreamer47.livejournal.com]

Hello :) I found your journal through some icon community, probably a Veronica Mars one, thought you seem to be a cool person and decided to friend you. Hope you don't mind - friend me back?

On the spider note, I know what you mean. Small, wispy ones, I do not mind, it's the bigger ones that scare me.

[http://users.livejournal.com/brokenrecord__/]

That's completely fine, I'll friend you back. :)

Yeah, the wispy ones look frail, like even if they do plan on biting me, they could never really hurt me. But the other kind... [shudders].