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May. 26th, 2008 11:28 amugh. Gone back to posting only once every week. I'm not really sure what's been up with me the past week. I spent it watching season 2 of SYTYCD and seasons 1, 2, and 4 (I'd already seen all of season 3) of Project Runway. I was just really in the mood for competitive reality shows like those, I guess, which is entirely bizarre, since I've never been much a fan of reality shows. I mean, there have been times I've watched an episode or two of random shows, but never that much. I also watched all three Lakers vs. Spurs games, which is also bizarre for me, since I haven't been interested in basketball since I was like 9. Yeah, I don't know. I feel like I've been a different person this past week.
My job search has so far failed miserably. I haven't actually DONE anything yet, so I don't know that I can say it's failed. I have no idea what I even want to do. I started thinking about getting a temp job, but then when I mentioned it to other people, they were all "Really? That doesn't look that great on resumes/applications." Which I wasn't really concerned with before, I just wanted some sort of job experience and money, but then I thought that maybe I should be thinking about that. So then I started looking at tutoring jobs, but all of them required references, and then I needed to figure out who the hell I was going to ask for that. And... that's where I'm stuck. I'm just so sure that I'm not even going to get these jobs, and I'm so afraid of rejection that I'm just like "Well, not going to get the job anyways, so why bother applying?" And I'm afraid to ask people for references also because I'm afraid they'll say no. ugh. At this point I'm kind of just doing nothing until my mom starts bugging me about it again. This is so much more stressful than I expected it to be, but it's all just my stupid issues and I'm making it much more difficult than it needs to be.
Anyways, I'm seeing The Fall this afternoon with my parents. It has Lee Pace and looks visually stunning, but it's gotten some really bad (although also some really good) reviews. I don't know. Hopefully it'll be good.
My job search has so far failed miserably. I haven't actually DONE anything yet, so I don't know that I can say it's failed. I have no idea what I even want to do. I started thinking about getting a temp job, but then when I mentioned it to other people, they were all "Really? That doesn't look that great on resumes/applications." Which I wasn't really concerned with before, I just wanted some sort of job experience and money, but then I thought that maybe I should be thinking about that. So then I started looking at tutoring jobs, but all of them required references, and then I needed to figure out who the hell I was going to ask for that. And... that's where I'm stuck. I'm just so sure that I'm not even going to get these jobs, and I'm so afraid of rejection that I'm just like "Well, not going to get the job anyways, so why bother applying?" And I'm afraid to ask people for references also because I'm afraid they'll say no. ugh. At this point I'm kind of just doing nothing until my mom starts bugging me about it again. This is so much more stressful than I expected it to be, but it's all just my stupid issues and I'm making it much more difficult than it needs to be.
Anyways, I'm seeing The Fall this afternoon with my parents. It has Lee Pace and looks visually stunning, but it's gotten some really bad (although also some really good) reviews. I don't know. Hopefully it'll be good.
